abc dee ([info]dannyell) wrote,
@ 2005-11-25 15:12:00
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Enter The Confessional
[confessions]

At the cue of many of my Internet Friends, I'm opening up my journal for your confessions. This is open to the public, and IP tracking has been turned off. Hey, make it worth my/your while!

It's like talking to someone's voicemail, only I promise not to ever call you back.

Confess anything you like: terrible, trivial, tragicomic, tantalizing, whatever. Anonymously or otherwise. Wipe that conscience clean, Chief. I want to hear it all.

I won't tell a single soul. Pinkie swear.


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(Anonymous)
2005-11-25 08:49 pm UTC (link)
I feel so ugly sometimes. It's crazy. People tell me that I'm cute or good looking but it just doesnt register in my head. I've taken up exercising and it feels really good and I've lost about ten pounds.

It's crazy how good it feels to have some self confidence.

Booya.

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(Anonymous)
2005-11-25 10:14 pm UTC (link)
I was dating my boyfriend for almost 2 years. I told him I loved him and would never do anything to hurt him. In August I went to college.

I cheated on him. Three times.

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(Anonymous)
2006-10-19 02:07 am UTC (link)
That's a pretty shitty thing to do. But something tells me that he probably did the same to you.

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(Anonymous)
2005-11-25 10:21 pm UTC (link)
I have no idea how other people see me or feel about me.

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(Anonymous)
2005-11-25 11:38 pm UTC (link)
i say that i am that way...but deep down i care more than i maybe should...

true they may be strangers, but when it comes to friends and making a first impression---ill tell you i dont care, but deep in my heart and soul, i care too much...

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(Anonymous)
2005-11-25 11:09 pm UTC (link)
Sometimes I want to be whatever society's ideal of normal is. I'm tired of looking the way I am, being the way I am and everything else in between. I'd say 50% of the time, I hate myself.

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(Anonymous)
2005-11-25 11:58 pm UTC (link)
I feel ugly all the time. My friends suck and the guy I've liked for 4 years doesn't care about me. I'm a closet HP fangirl and like slash too much.

I wish I had hair like yours.

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(Anonymous)
2005-11-26 12:15 am UTC (link)
I lied about being pregnant and having an abortion. It didn't get me anything that I hoped it would get me.

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(Anonymous)
2005-11-26 02:23 am UTC (link)
I used to be suicidal.

I used to be anorexic.
My dress size has nearly (actually has for some garments) doubled in 4 years.
I feel fat, ugly, and overall disgusting. I often wish I was thinner, and prettier. The only thing I have in my life is my guy of almost 3 and a half years. Without him, I might spiral back into depression. He doesn't know. I don't want to put that on his shoulders.

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[info]_reflections
2005-11-26 02:50 am UTC (link)
i have a crush on this guy at work who is like 30 something
I AINT AFRAID TO ADMIT THAT
lolz?:AS?ASF?
okay, it's not really a crush
he does smell real nice though

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(Anonymous)
2005-11-26 05:20 am UTC (link)
I'm a terrible friend. Sometimes I worry that I'm really just selfish and completely self-centred. The two people I love most in the world hate me.
I'm not really self-centred. I'm just lazy. I don't have the impetus to do anythine, ever. No sense of urgency.
I feel guilty, but then I just go to sleep.

I wish I had the energy to be everything everyone wants me to be.

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(Anonymous)
2005-11-26 04:54 pm UTC (link)
i have feelings for four different girls in four very different locations.

the one whom i want the most (my ex) is inaccessible due to a mutual agreement to move on, due to the difficulty of romance over distance.

the one whom wants me the most and would do anything for me, i hardly have feelings for anymore.

i don't lie, but i don't tell the whole truth.

advice?

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(Anonymous)
2005-11-26 08:59 pm UTC (link)
I pretend not to want love, but really I want it more than anyone else.

I feel horrible after physical encounters, no matter who they're with.

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(Anonymous)
2006-01-08 07:14 am UTC (link)
I pretend not to want love, but really I want it more than anyone else.
same here.

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(Anonymous)
2005-11-26 11:50 pm UTC (link)
I measure my self worth on how much others like me. for as long as i can remember i have been trying to please everyone but i always come away feeling that i am just irritating people, so i have very low self worth (and pretty much always have).

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(Anonymous)
2006-06-30 02:06 am UTC (link)
you sound like me.

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(Anonymous)
2005-11-27 02:33 am UTC (link)
4 years ago i lost my best friend and i never got to say goodbye. she meant the world to me and i have never fully recovered. you know how people always tell you that over time your heart will heal? well in my case that has proven to be wrong. i still cry myself to sleep and i still walk around, pretending to be fine when really i'm not. i have moved on with my life, however there will always be that part of me that is completely attached to her and that holds me back. i miss her more than i could ever express and i would do anything to have her back, even if only for a day....

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(Anonymous)
2005-11-27 07:16 am UTC (link)
im a little lonely because i haven't ever had a boyfriend, and i feel like i repel all men. i find it hard to talk to anyone i'm remotely interested in because i'm scared i'll make a fool of myself and as a result they feel like im ignoring them or being rude. im slowly losing faith in having a meaningful relationship.

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(Anonymous)
2005-11-29 06:13 am UTC (link)
im sorry that all throughout highschool, we always talked about one of our friends behind her back. sure she did some stupid things, but there is no purpose in making fun of others. i think that i'm one of the nicest people in the world, but that i'm not treated in the same manner. I often find myself thinking that I'm smarter and more mature than most other people, and I think that they need to grow up and show a little fucking respect.

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(Anonymous)
2005-12-07 04:50 am UTC (link)
i have a problem with lying.

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(Anonymous)
2005-12-11 08:36 pm UTC (link)
I lie a lot.

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(Anonymous)
2006-08-28 07:16 pm UTC (link)
ditto.

i lie at LEAST once a day. the ironic thing is, i LOATHE liars.

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(Anonymous)
2005-12-12 07:13 pm UTC (link)
i'm completely totally in love with my best friend.
but my assface stepdad destroyed any chances of us being together.
we're nto even allowed to see each other!
i want to kill myself, but i could never leave him.
he doesn't like me like that, he said it's because we're too close, but i think its because i'm too fat. i'm only a size 12 but all his friends are 8's and 10's. and fat is ugly, i know that, i'm told that every day by loads of shitheads at school.
i would die for a boyfriend. DIE.
but only for a certain type of guy, i'm shalllow. long fringe and black hair, spikey at the back, brown eyes, skinny, wears tight girls jeans, and would bring me flowers. i'm really shallow!
shallow, fat, and also a liar. i lie to get my way, often enough 'no mum of course i was at school' is probably my favorite. that and 'im going to ...'s' to go and see the boy i love. i know we're right for each other, but everything else is wrong.
xoxo

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(Anonymous)
2005-12-18 09:13 pm UTC (link)
I think I like him just because I like people to depend on me, and he does...

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(Anonymous)
2005-12-19 02:57 pm UTC (link)
I lie too much for my own good.

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(Anonymous)
2005-12-19 03:07 pm UTC (link)
I hate alot of people for the most trivial things and it irks me. I hate to lose because I'd do anything to win, even betray my closest friends or sell anyone out to that enemy. I don't tell my friends things that I think will give them a hold over me or tips that teachers give on the exams that they missed. If I do, I regret it later. I've watched porn and hated myself for it. Sometimes, I'm too horny for my own good. I HATE THIS PART OF ME!!

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(no subject) - (Anonymous), 2005-12-19 03:11 pm UTC
(no subject) - (Anonymous), 2005-12-19 03:13 pm UTC

(Anonymous)
2005-12-23 08:12 pm UTC (link)
im a huge HP fan. i love HP/SS slash a little too much. i tell my boyfriend that i love him, but i dont. i like one of his his best friends. i hate all the secrets i have to keep. i hate the responsiblity of being popular. but i dont want to be a loser.

thanks for listening :)

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(Anonymous)
2005-12-24 09:30 pm UTC (link)
well. i was thinking. and my little lightbulb went off of things to say. i shop lifted. i had a boyfriend... and another boy say down next to me, bf got up, kissed the random boy. shh. my boyfriend doesnt know that. i'm not really sure why i ever did that. umm... i spent 5 hours on the phone with another boy, while for the first 20 mins, my boyfriend was on call waiting. =D whoopsies. but lately, i haven't done anything bad. except let alot of boys hit on me. but i dont think that's TOO bad. shhh. it's a secret

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(Anonymous)
2006-01-07 04:20 am UTC (link)
i have never been kissed

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(Anonymous)
2006-03-16 06:54 pm UTC (link)
me neither

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(Anonymous)
2006-01-07 07:35 am UTC (link)
i hate racism.

i wish i could rid society of it forever. i'm taking sociology classes and i keep learning more about it and how pervasive it is and the social forces that contribute to it and all that.

but i also know down that deep down,
I'M RACIST.

i hate this part of me.
i am trying to change it.

i need to try harder.

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(Anonymous)
2006-01-07 09:13 pm UTC (link)
I am in love with a woman that I never meant to fall in love with - because I am a woman, too. I have loved her so long that even now, when we fight all the time and our friendship is rocky, the thought of never speaking to her is like the thought of sawing my own arm off and leaving it behind.

She knows it, too, that I'm in love - and she just doesn't care. I would follow her to the ends of the earth, and all she can say is that I use her, I depend on her for too much.

I use her? I've been her virtual lapdog for five years. Willingly. God.

Woof.

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(Anonymous)
2006-03-22 04:03 am UTC (link)
There is nothing wrong will being queer! ..but there is something wrong with letting somebody manipulate you.

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